THE FEAR (love)

Have you realized we are closer in our far off distances
Than we are in person(nearness)?
Some of such close instances are when we chat on these
Social media platforms, or, though scarce, via phone calls.
But when we get to meet in person there is this gap.
That gap that keeps living between, amongst, or betwixt us.
I fear, yeah I fear that it’s just fear, yet not knowing the fear of what.
I’ve been wondering, is this fear from my side alone?
Now to the fear of what,
The fear of the fear of what I fear most may happen.
The fear of the fear of the fact that you can’t be predicted.
The fear of the fact that any further closeness may lead to
Creating a greater distance even in this instance that we are seemingly close.
The fear of the fear that my getting close to you may become a thing of leisure
Pleasurable to have all time, and encompassed with great passion
Yet, the fear of the fear that I am probably closer to myself than another.
The fear of the fear that in my loneness, I wish for one to ease me of all the pressures.
The fear of the fact that, I won’t want to let go or even give space around whom I have great pleasure.
The fear of the fear that I can’t stand seeing you go.
The fear of the fear that I get scared of the handful you might be to handle unless you let go of some stuff.
But then I keep asking myself that, if I have all these in mind even in our distances, why don’t I get close to find out the real you, because I must confess I do have fear also that all those assumptions I have could be cock and bull stories.
But I also fear the fear that I may be right.
The fear that I may want to correct you and you may not stand my over protectiveness or seemingly bossy nature.
I fear the fear that am going to be closer to you in our distances better than wanting to be close in person.
Living that life of a hi- hello than a chit chatty conversation.
Living that life of a steal stare than looking into each-others’ eyes without blinking.
Living that life of a wave than a real deep hug.
Living that life of a cornered smile than a wild laughter together.
I do so much hope that as time goes by, we get to understand each other and stop succumbing to our fears.
We fix all the stuff that don’t seem to be working and accept each-others’ flaws
Making this world a better place for us.
🙏💔🙏🌹🙏💕🙏

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